Mama, Are You Proud of Me?

“…people talk about death in a different way than they do about anything else; and the only reason for that is, nobody who dies tells us anything about what happened to them afterward.” - Rainer Maria Rilke, “The Song of Justice”, Stories of God.

When I was seven years old, my mother died. Mama, Are You Proud of Me? is my journey of reconciliation with the questions which haunt me after her death. The psychological trauma I initially faced became compounded when I learned later that she died due to medical malpractice. With my known reality shattered, these inquiries became even more prominent in the minutiae of daily life as I began to process her death again.